How to explain how I am feeling.
It really isn't feeling depressed, it is more just a feeling of being blah. Is blah depression?
I do find joy still in certain things, but I am having a great deal of trouble staying on track. Perhaps it is the weather and the constant up and down of the temperatures. Perhaps it is because I just can't seem to want to bake (very strange for me), or the thought of many more weeks of this up and down temperature keeping us inside.
Or it could be the amount of money we spent on our upcoming trip and figuring out how to save that money back.... Harvey gets this way when we purchase a new to us vehicle, and I get this way when we decide to spend on an experience. Aren't we a strange pair and it isn't like we can't afford either.
Another reason could be how expensive day to day life is getting and from what is coming out of Davos and the World Economic Forum the world is going crazy. Once again, it seems like Canada will be standing alone, even though Mark Carney got a standing ovation after his speech. People and countries are bowing down to the bully below us. Giving him what he wants, giving him credibility, making us the scapegoat for his anger. No, I shouldn't say us alone. Denmark and the UK are standing up as well.
I am just so tired of the things are happening in our world. I want to pull the blankets over my head and pretend that things are the same.
Nothing will ever be the same again. Trust has gone.
Everybody have a wonderful evening.
God bless.
Dear Jackie, blah could be depression, but not necessarily. I can relate, dear friend, I feel blah every now and then, and since I struggle with depression, I have to keep an eye on the blah feeling that it doesn't turn into a depression.
ReplyDeleteIf you still find joy in some things you love, it most likely isn't depression, but keep an eye on yourself that it doesn't worsen.
Sending you much love and warm hugs.
I'm with you in feeling blah. Too much that's terrifying on the news so it's a fine balance between watching enough to be informed and watching too much. I am so very grateful we have Carney leading our country but if the other countries don't stand with him it could be really dire. All we can do is live one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteThere hasn’t been much sunshine here as of late and I think that tends to lead to those feelings of blah when too many days like that are strung together. My heart goes out to you all over this Greenland Trump issue. Trump needs to stop threatening Greenland and let them be. I’ll be so glad when he is out of office.
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I generally get the blahs in January and February - just such cold and snowy times. Sun usually hiding as well.
ReplyDeleteMy faith keeps me strong.
I'm more of an ostrich with my head in the sand, I don't pay any attention to the news unless it directly affects me and don't find that I get depressed. The news on tv is only a panic button in our opinion. Too many buy into it. Sorry, just stating our view.
ReplyDeleteMy sister, on the other hand, is feeling blah and trying to figure if her loss of 'gumption' and appetite is the weather, the cancer or the meds.
I agree with Linda’s assessment. I get depressed so this whole crap show from our demented leader keeps me on the moody side. Nor does the fact that we can’t do anything about it but wait. Wait. Wait. Carney is a gem, in my opinion. The nasty weather doesn’t help, either. Goals and dreams help which you have.
ReplyDeleteI think many of are feeling that way, especially here in the US. It is horrifying and frightening
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you are not feeling your usual enthusiasm for life. My remedies are to avoid the news (since we have no control over any of it). And I was encouraged to list, in a notebook, three things for which I am thankful to God for every day. (It is amazing how often the word Peace comes up in my notations!). I also often, through the day, recite Proverbs 3:5,6 often to myself!
ReplyDeleteI will be praying for you!
I really think it's world events which are dragging everyone down, Jackie. You are right. The world has gone mad and we must not give in to the bully who wants to rule the world. I try not to watch too much news on TV because then I can't sleep for worrying. Im with you in feeling blah.
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time indeed....
Angie x
So many leaders are scared of what the orange one might do, he is so unpredictable he's scary and a bully. I feel the same way as you, I think the extra concerns we have about our world alongside the blues we feel at this time of year is feeding any anxiety. I have not done any crafting so far this month, unheard of in this house.
ReplyDeleteWeather this time of year with the up and down and extreme cold & darkness. Trust is in the Lord not mortals. Perk up dear Jackie, spring is coming, there are plants waiting to burst through the soil.
ReplyDeleteI agree that it is probably the world events that are dragging you down at the moment. It's affecting us all. The daily onslaught of bs is difficult to ignore. I'm trying to enjoy my life while I can, as goodness knows how things are going to go in the future if certain people get their way. It's like living in a Batman movie, we just need Batman and Robin to appear and save the world, but somehow I don't think that's going to happen any time soon.
ReplyDeleteI get the blahs in January, more so the last few years as a widow. The state of the world and the awful inhumane and evil US administration is impacting everyone, and I'm appalled he still has die hard support. I'm bingeing gardening/ allotment YouTuber videos to give me encouragement that spring will come.
ReplyDeleteAwww, I'm sorry for your sadness. My mom always told me "This too, shall pass" and she was always right. And, this season is the time to rest. So rest in every day and know that it is ok to rest. Winter time is time to relax and contemplate. Just don't think about 'him'. You only have control over yourself.
ReplyDeleteIt is the season of blah, and I think most people feel that way at some point during this period. Totally normal, and then add in the ridiculous behaviour of the current administration in the U.S., the on-going talk of Alberta separation (which will never happen), and the conflicts around the world, it certainly adds to our feelings.
ReplyDeleteBut, I would argue, the fact you feel this way about current events is a good thing. It means you care about your fellow world citizens. You aren't ignoring the issues or simply standing by - you're adding your voice to all who are angered and horrified by what is happening. Leaders across the world are hearing those voices and while we may not see the immediate impact, I believe things are changing for the better. Hence the backing off on the acquisition of Greenland and lowering of tariffs.
Also, I personally don't believe you need to save back the funds you spend on things that make your life easier or experiences that broaden your horizons. I know, just from reading your blog that you've been frugal all your life and now is the time you can truly enjoy the fruits of that labour.
Yes, I understand the feelings you have Jackie. You have every right to be worried as we are living in a worrisome time. Thankfully, we have such an experienced, level headed prime minister at the helm. For me, I don't watch much news and keep myself occupied with my chores and hobbies as much as I can. And I do believe in the end, sanity will win out. And I agree with Maebeme, you shouldn't worry about saving back what you spend...you two are such careful spenders!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to see, even from my small corner of the world, how many are bowng down to this monster stroking his ego, and fawning all over him. I dont know much about overseas politics, but certainly no other USA leader has previously acted as he does? Where is it all going to end?
ReplyDeleteI think it's important to say that there is injustice in the world. I've seen bloggers post how God is in charge and this is in his plan but he ain't getting it done. Gaza is a nightmare. Israel is on a rampage. Trump is insane. Ice is making everyone frightened. Innocent people are unjustly arrested, detained, killed. Cubans are literally starving and the U.S. is blocking their oil from Venezuela because Trump is selling it and pocketing the money. I am outraged by the injustice and offended by the complacency of those who are unaffected. Shouldn't Christians be the first to stand up and demand justice? We have a voice; we need a heart.
ReplyDeleteI am trying so hard to let it go with "him". I cannot understand how anyone can still think he is anything but awful.
ReplyDeleteI have had some issues with the winter blues myself and am trying to talk myself into a better frame of mind.
It's a process.
JC
This might seem like a weird question or maybe seem like a normal question. Have you considered taking up macro photography? Even indoors, we never run out of things to shoot as macro photographers. It's a peaceful calming and enjoyable craft. Might bring a little new spark to the day.
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