How to explain how I am feeling.
It really isn't feeling depressed, it is more just a feeling of being blah. Is blah depression?
I do find joy still in certain things, but I am having a great deal of trouble staying on track. Perhaps it is the weather and the constant up and down of the temperatures. Perhaps it is because I just can't seem to want to bake (very strange for me), or the thought of many more weeks of this up and down temperature keeping us inside.
Or it could be the amount of money we spent on our upcoming trip and figuring out how to save that money back.... Harvey gets this way when we purchase a new to us vehicle, and I get this way when we decide to spend on an experience. Aren't we a strange pair and it isn't like we can't afford either.
Another reason could be how expensive day to day life is getting and from what is coming out of Davos and the World Economic Forum the world is going crazy. Once again, it seems like Canada will be standing alone, even though Mark Carney got a standing ovation after his speech. People and countries are bowing down to the bully below us. Giving him what he wants, giving him credibility, making us the scapegoat for his anger. No, I shouldn't say us alone. Denmark and the UK are standing up as well.
I am just so tired of the things are happening in our world. I want to pull the blankets over my head and pretend that things are the same.
Nothing will ever be the same again. Trust has gone.
Everybody have a wonderful evening.
God bless.
Dear Jackie, blah could be depression, but not necessarily. I can relate, dear friend, I feel blah every now and then, and since I struggle with depression, I have to keep an eye on the blah feeling that it doesn't turn into a depression.
ReplyDeleteIf you still find joy in some things you love, it most likely isn't depression, but keep an eye on yourself that it doesn't worsen.
Sending you much love and warm hugs.
I'm with you in feeling blah. Too much that's terrifying on the news so it's a fine balance between watching enough to be informed and watching too much. I am so very grateful we have Carney leading our country but if the other countries don't stand with him it could be really dire. All we can do is live one day at a time.
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