Wednesday, October 14, 2020

Paranoia Attacks

 I think that the constant bombardment of updates on Covid-19 have finally driven me around the bend. 

I know that none of us have the virus (or at least intellectually I know this) but when our priest sent out a letter asking those who had company visiting from out of province to stay home from the class, my mind started whirling. I of course sent back an email stating I would not be attending. Now all I can think about is what if Kurt was asymptomatic. 

Not so worried about Kris as he downloaded the app that lets him know if he has been exposed to someone who has the virus. Then I started to think that app only works if the person he is exposed to turned on their app. Arrgh, my head is whirling.

The other thing driving me crazy is are we going to go into lockdown again, or at least a version of it? Do I need to stock up even more, where can I find shelf stable milk, or should I buy some nondairy almond milk? Will I actually be able to have my surgery, or will they lockdown the hospitals once again?

I know that these are all things that I, myself, have no control over. Yet if we all work together, we could have some control of this crazy situation. 

I think I am driving myself mad. It does not help that the weather is getting colder and I won't be able to get out as much. Especially when the snow falls and it gets icy out. Harvey will not let me out, just in case I slip and fall. He wants no more broken bones and with my osteoporosis there could be a good chance of that happening. I may just be walking around the house a few hundred times every day and of course there is always the treadmill.

Two great things this week are, that my friend and her husband tested negative for the virus, and we now have a testing facility right in our city. No more having to drive to the next city or Regina for testing. However the scary thing this means is that more people are coming down with Covid-19 in our area (just another thing to drive me slightly crazy).

I will post some pictures of what I have been up to this week tomorrow. Including some of the quilt, which isn't quite doing what I had thought it would.

Everybody have a wonderful evening. 

God bless.


  1. I'm sure the priest is just being super cautious to protect vulnerable members of the congregation. We are in the same situation here with different suggestions every day of what might happen in terms of lockdown. I think I'll have to go to work whatever, due to working in retail. It's complete chaos. I just keep my head down and hope for the best.

  2. It is so hard Jacckie. Numbers are rising in Cornwall now, and we had been very low previously.

  3. I’m sorry you are feeling so stressed and hope you have some go to stress reduction practices.

  4. What you are feeling is quite normal. At least I think we all go through periods of worry and anxiety about the current situation.
    I was an accountant by trade, so I tend to think of things in relation to the risk. In my mind, the risk of Covid here in Saskatchewan is still very low, but definitely increasing. All we can do personally, is take the necessary precautions and avoid situations where the spread is more likely (if we can).
    Take care and stay well.

  5. As someone who has been in the hospital alot (surgery/chemo) this summer I highly doubt your surgery will be delayed. Keep the faith. Likely your Priest was just trying to prevent exposure for a couple of weeks. I worry about my big surgery hopefully end of November but no sense in worrying, whatever will be will be. Hugs

  6. I am the same. Anxiety. I know what it is but cannot get on top of it. Its not being in control isnt it.x

  7. Try not to worry, dear heart, but at the same time strictly follow the guidelines: Have no one under your roof that doesn't already live there, wear a mask every single time you leave your home, and wash your hands religiously when you get home & use hand sanitizer inbetween while out. If you do those things you won't catch COVID. ~Andrea xoxo

  8. I just don't think there is such a thng as being too careful. I do not follow the have no one under your roof who doesnt live there guideline (I had packers here, after all, lol, and i will be visiting my working daughter and son in law once a week). having said that I personally am still not worshiping in person (Episcopal churches here are doing bread only starting this week) and I have been in a real store twice (will be three times on Sunday) so far. I fall into the stay at home when I can school so I feel your pan. I finally decided driving through or sleeping on the side of the road were both insane so I am going to a hotel. But I would be lying if I didn't say I wasnt considering sleeping in a chair with my own pillow, lo.

  9. This is really getting to everyone. It has been so long and we all knew there would be a second wave. I am covid exhausted also, we just have o hang in together my friend.

  10. I think everyone has increased anxiety with colder weather coming and being inside more. I just had a right knee replaced early September that was rescheduled from lock down need left done and if wasn’t for worry, would have in January or February...but worry about increased cases and closing down and because of no family, I worry about bad weather and getting to PT. I had a wonderful summer though.....out eating in spaces and protocol following establishments. Sad that this will all go away in a few short weeks. I am very grateful that our community pool opened this summer and we all stayed healthy and followed protocols and did not shut down. Almost felt normal except for more visitors to our seashore resort ( Cape May, NJ ) and less parking and more crowds ! I was very surprised how normal things seemed. I wish you well with your surgery. I enjoy your blog but rarely make any comments. Sometimes we follow all rules but shit happens. Stay safe and well.